Shea Couleé: Divine Femininity 

Accepting yourself for who you are is a never-ending process. In this episode, Michelle Tea is joined by musician, activist, and drag artist Shea Couleé to discuss the magic of embracing your femininity, getting your kid magic back, and tapping into your inner goddess. Then, Judy Darling gives us a spell for taking back your pride by traveling through time.

 

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Shea Couleé: Anybody should be allowed to be as feminine as they want, once I started to embrace that part of me, I felt so much more powerful. And I do feel like I tap into my magic when I lean into my Shea Couleé, my inner goddess.

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Michelle Tea: This is Your Magic. I’m Michelle Tea.

Today on the show I’m speaking with musician, activist and Drag Race All Stars winner Shea Couleé. We’re going to talk about the dream realm, being of service, and queer magic. 

After that, we have a time-traveling spell from drag witch Judy Darling, designed to help us become our own guardian angels.

Stay with us.

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Michelle Tea: Know what I think is cute? Remembering being a teenager in New England, heading out to occult shops like Arsenic and Old Lace in Cambridge or Crow Haven Corner in Salem with my best friend Peter. We were both freaky outcasts, gothy punks, the sort of individuals that often got debris hurled at us from passing cars in uptight Massachusetts. I’ve told this story before. But, I think I left something crucial out of the telling. We were queer.

If you believe in energy — and you sort of have to, to have a spiritual practice, right? — then it’s not hard to imagine energy has a variety of flavors, orientations, stances. Some people have very witchy energy, and some have powerfully queer energy, and me and my friends, we mostly had both. We didn’t necessarily know what to do with it. We lit a lot of candles and carried magical items with us; we drank too much illegally-procured vodka and cried together. We ran from cops and skinheads and soothed one another with tarot readings. We couldn’t really claim we were witches, and we were too scared to speak to our queerness, but the fact is we were touched by some freaky queer vibe, chosen by fey sprites or butch goddesses. The mark was ineffable and upon us, and throughout our lives it would move us in various directions, spiritual and creative, tender, and fierce.

Thirty-five years later, I’m a public witch with a tarot podcast, and Peter just graduated from psychic school. He texts me all the time with like little hits he gets about my life, coming at him from the ether. (It is very cool to have a psychic friend!) I’m flying to the east coast next week to see him. We will definitely make a pilgrimage to some sacred sites, queer and pagan — the Witch Trials Memorial in Salem; Herring Cove Beach in Provincetown. All magic is magical, duh, but queer magic brings with it a little something extra — a dose of ritual camp, deep misfit glamour, a sixth sense sequined with compassion. We conjure dazzle camouflage to slide through dangers unseen, or raise up our vibes to monstrous heights to scare off predators. We send psychic flares to one another, creating covens of community, weaving our powers for maximum potency. Sometimes we’re really conscious that we’re doing this, and a lot of times we really aren’t. 

Now, let’s go talk to Shea Coulee.

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Michelle Tea: Hi Shea! Thank you for being on Your Magic

Shea Couleé: Oh, my God, I'm so excited. I can’t wait. 

Michelle Tea: Do you have a spiritual practice of your own or a magical practice or? 

Shea Couleé: Oh gosh, that's a really good question. Um, I guess my spiritual practice would just be meditation, just always trying to be mindful. Like my best friend of 12 years, she reads tarot. So whenever I'm like kind of looking for a reading, I'll always reach out to her and she'll give me a good one because she just knows me so well. And that's about that's that's about it. 

I just really try and um because I grew up in the Church Baptist, my mom's a reverend and for me I’ve like reformatted the concept of God instead of it being, you know, first of all, male. 

Michelle Tea: Right.

Shea Couleé: To me, I'm just like, that's the patriarchy. For me, you know, we all have our, like, origin, our source of energy that, like, connects us all. And in that way, we each have, like, our own God power potential. And so I just try and tap into that.

Michelle Tea: Do you feel that there's any — do you connect to that that sense of magic and yourself as like plugged into the universe through drag and through gender play? 

Shea Couleé: I really do feel like my magic comes forth through my drag. I discovered so much of my own magic and power through doing drag because, I feel like divine energy is just inherently feminine all of the really powerful examples that I've always seen in my life have been from women. When I think of like love and power and divinity and magic, there's this natural, like, feminine energy that I feel surrounds it. So once I started to embrace and enhance my femininity, which, you know, in this world, as someone who may be presenting cis male, seems like, you know, so like, oh, God, you know, misogyny. It just is so annoying because it's like… anybody should be allowed to be as feminine as they want, because I think that it's great and it's beautiful and it's powerful, but as like, you know, young boys, we really — there's all this toxic masculinity that says, don't do this, don't be like that. And then once I started to embrace that part of me, I felt so much more powerful. And I was just like, this is what the patriarchy doesn't want us to find out. This is why they tell a little boy to not be femme because I'm like, it actually is really powerful. And I do feel like I, I can, I tap into my, my magic when I really, really, you know, lean into my, my Shea Couleé, my inner goddess. 

Michelle Tea: Yes, I love that so much. I just feel like feminine and masculine energies, they're energies, you know, and they're accessible to anybody who wants them and the way that our culture has, like, attached them to specific bodies and space and created rules around it. 

Shea Couleé: Yeah. 

Michelle Tea: Is so abusive. I mean, I have a six year old, you know, and I remember when he was in preschool, it's like, you know, I live in L.A., so it's like a pretty progressive preschool and all the moms would be watching their sons play and be like, is he gay? I think he's going to be gay. And it's like one of those preschools where all the moms are like, I think he's going to be gay. Crossing their fingers. Everyone wants like a magical little... but it's so interesting because I think it's just the natural sort of femininity that has not yet and hopefully never will be like beaten out of these kids by culture that they just are - 

Shea Couleé: Exactly. 

Michelle Tea: - in their natural mixture of feminine and masculine. And it's all just, you know, so I feel like so much of adulthood, queer adulthood is just unlearning everything, all the programming we got during those formative years and try to get back to that kid magic. 

Shea Couleé: Yeah. That kid magic is really important. And I think that that's one thing. I think that that's like why on Drag Race, you know, for the girls that make it to the finale, RuPaul asks the question for you to give a piece of advice to your younger self, because I constantly check in with that younger self because that younger self was so fearless, that younger self, just the sky was the limit and not like not even the sky, just like there were no limits. And you know, like you said, there are all these things that we then later on learn and I feel like, you know, we retreat and hide certain parts of ourselves in order to try and navigate through society and part of queer adulthood is really just unlearning those behaviors and peeling back those layers and like allowing that, like, inner child to come back forth again.

Michelle Tea:. What what astrological sign are you?

Shea Couleé: I'm an Aquarius sun. I'm Pisces Moon and Pisces rising. 

Michelle Tea: Oh, my God. I'm an Aquarius as well on the Pisces cusp.

Shea Couleé: Yes. 

Michelle Tea: Do you relate to being an Aquarius? 

Shea Couleé: I do identify really hard with being an Aquarius. My dad was an Aquarius and my grandfather was an Aquarius too. Like all of our birthdays are actually four days apart. 

Yeah, and going back to like community and activism, that's something that I always just like grew up being surrounded by that like we are as powerful as our weakest member. So you should always be focusing on trying to elevate those that need the help the most. Other than that, it's just like I'm such a dreamer, like, I live in two parallel universe verses that are going at the same time. You know, I'm here in this realm, but I'm also like in this dream realm that's like going like right next to it, you know? There's like there's always a fantasy that's happening at the same time, you know? It's like sometimes I'm all by myself, but still it's like I'm performing for, like a reality television camera that's not there. 

Michelle Tea: Hearing you talk like this, it makes me want to ask, like when you get an inspiration for an act like how does it come to you? Like how how does it feel in your body or how how do you how do you put them together? 

Shea Couleé: Okay, so that inspiration comes from that like parallel fantasy universe, like that's you know, and I'll be going through my day and I'll be doing something. A lot of times it's like when I'm on the elliptical, at the gym, you know, and then like because you're trying to zone out.

Michelle Tea: Endorphins! 

Shea Couleé:  Right. You get those endorphins and then you're also trying to, like, zone out because you're just like doing the same repetitive motion. And then I just like really kind of like lean into that fantasy world. I'm like staring out the window and then, like, all of a sudden it's just like the images and like the feelings start getting like really, really strong. You know, they're always kind of fuzzy. But then all of a sudden, like, I'll get this, like, amazing clarity and then like immediately I'm like, OK, like, boom, there it was. That's the inspiration. 

Michelle Tea: Have you have you ever had any experiences that you would call kind of supernatural or uncanny or?

Shea Couleé: I used to have them a lot more when I was a kid. I would say my first experience that I remember was probably around eight. And I had this dream that I had a visit from my maternal grandmother. I was describing her and in the dream and, you know, as a kid, always I've paid attention to what people were wearing. And when I described her outfit, my mom was like, that's what she was buried in. And she died. She died when my mom was 23 and my mom had me when she was 35, so you know what I’m saying? She was just so shook. You know, I was like, oh, it's like this peach dress, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And she was like, you know, I could tell she just had like, chills. She was like, oh, my goodness. 

Michelle Tea: I'm getting chills. 

Shea Couleé: Right. And then we stayed in a haunted hotel once on tour. That was not the tea.

Michelle Tea: Oh where? 

Shea Coulee: This was in Albuquerque, New Mexico. Oh, girl.

Michelle Tea: It sounds fun, but it's not fun. 

Shea Couleé: And like we stayed in this hotel that was haunted. We didn't know. And I've never felt like we were... like we were trying to sleep and it felt like a vibration, like an energy was like hovering and then the the the venue that we were at, we're like loading in. And there's these stairs and in the stairs there's like this little shrine and we're like, oh my God, what the hell is this? And they're like, oh, this is for little Bobby. This used to be a silent movie theater and in the 20s, he was coming down these stairs and this hot water tank exploded and it killed him. So everyone leaves little like things for Bobby, you know, when they do shows and performances just for good luck, you know, to just, like, keep good energy. And so there is probably about like eight girls on this tour at this point. I was just like I remember I had this ring and I really did love this ring. I loved it. 

I was like, you know what, I'm going to leave this here. Like on the shrine, I was like, you know me and this ring have had some good times, but like, I'm going to leave that there. And another girl left something as well. And then when we were getting ready to load out because we were getting ready to go to El Paso and drive overnight, I get on the bus and all the girls were complaining about how ice cold their showers were in the dressing room. And I was like, I don't know what you're talking about. Like, my shower was, like, so warm. And the other girl who gave — she was like, mine was warm too. Which is crazy because he died from a hot water heater and like, that's the part that just like really just like like I get chills every time I tell that story because I was just like we were literally the only two girls that left something. We’re the only two that got hot water. 

I don't remember the name of the venue, but if you are a performer and you walk into a venue in El Paso and there is a shrine for little Bobby, leave something. Leave something for little Bobby. 

Michelle Tea: Do you think that queer people are more sort of, I don't know, predisposed to psychic activity? 

Shea Couleé: Yeah, because I feel like. I feel like as queer people, we've naturally had to kind of look from the outside in, and I feel like that otherness that feeling allows you, I don't know, to like tap into this inner magic because you do have to find it for yourself, because there's... we don't get the same type of nurture and validation a lot of the times that, you know, other cis, hetero people get. So it is like you kind of have to dig it, you know, within yourself to like find that, that magic and that courage and sixth sense. And then, like, once you start to tap into that, I feel like is when you start to be like, oh, wow, this is like actually quite like powerful and it's not as rigid as, like, typical religious constructs. You're like, this is really about me and my feelings and my intuitions and your like. And that is awesome, you know?

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Michelle Tea: Could I read your tarot cards?

Shea Couleé: Yes, yes!

Michelle Tea: Cool!

Shea Couleé: I'm so ready. 

Michelle Tea: What would you like a reading about? 

Shea Couleé: I've never I don't I've never really talked about it. And a lot of people don't know this, but I have a record label and it's called House Down Records, and I really want House Down records to be a place for not just queer, everybody, but, you know, really giving opportunities to try and create amazing opportunities for queer people in the music industry. 

Michelle Tea: So I'm going to ask the tarot, what does it look like for you to focus increasing energy on House Down records as a site of community uplift and support for queer artists, emerging queer artists, young queer artists, queer artists who need a break, who need a lift? What does it look like for you to undertake a sort of like new... like a new project or bring a new round of energy for that? Okay, picking three cards on that. Before I flip them, is there anything else, any other sort of ideas where you're like, oh, I could do that? 

Shea Couleé: I'm curious what it would look like for me to, oh, my God, relocate from Chicago to Los Angeles. 

Michelle Tea: I'm picking for both. So I just shuffled and picked for L.A. and now I'm picking for Chicago, like, what would it look like for you to just recommit and to say, like, you know, like definitively, no, I'm not leaving here, I'm staying here, you know, where you have such roots and you're already engaged in such work. 

Shea Couleé: I'm going to light my little candle with my crystal, it has a crystal in it that was charged in the moon. 

Michelle Tea: Oh, I love it. What crystal?

Shea Couleé: It's just quartz. Three witches in New York charged these together and put little spells to activate this candle.

Michelle Tea: I love that.

Shea Couleé: Yes. 

Michelle Tea: We have so many cards to flip. I love it. All right. So the question about what is it look like for you to do the focus on your record label? I don't know. It doesn't look awesome.

Shea Couleé: Uh huh.

Michelle Tea: It doesn't look awesome. Let me tell you what we got here. We got the Prince of Disks, which is a Taurus card, not a bad card, not a super inspired card, but definitely like a hard worker, right? So, not a bad card. 

But then we have this Five of Wands, which is called Strife in this deck, and it's, it’s Saturn in Leo. And there's something about the Saturn in Leo energy where, like, Leo wants to, like, play and have a rad time and Saturn's like. Did you think of that, though? Did you think of that? Did you cross that T? Did you dot that I? So it's stressful. You know, it kind of takes the joy out of it. 

Your final card is a little bit sending a mixed message. It's another — it's a disk card again, it's called Gain. It's the Nine of Disks and it's Venus in Virgo. So what this is telling me is that for whatever reason, to, to kind of bring this energy to your record label and try to start sort of a project within it that supports emerging artists, there's something almost structural. It's almost structural in the structure of the record label. Like you might not have the actual support you need right now as far as like — maybe like maybe you need more people to help you get that off the ground. But like, if you try to do it yourself right now, it's going to be overwhelming. 

Shea Couleé: Oh my god, thank you, cards. I have a tendency to put a lot on my plate, you know? Awesome. Thank you for that. No, I mean, because I'm in the process of really trying to build my own music and I really think that that will probably be the catalyst for the record label to just go out there and focus smaller solely on me so that I can get to a level to grow and then I can reach out and then help other artists at the same time. 

Michelle Tea: OK, I this, these pulls about where you should be living are messing me up because both of them are tough and it makes me wonder if there's a third place that you wonder if you should move to because L.A. looks like a big no.

LA looks stressful. Like the middle card here is Adjustment which is this like balance card. It's Libra. It's like, OK, there's a lot going on. I got to balance it. I got to find my way. But on either side of it, Defeat and Oppression. 

Shea Couleé: Oh, damn. 

Michelle Tea: It's like. Yeah. Defeat is like, oh, this isn't what I thought it was going to be. Bummer. 

Shea Couleé: Yeah. 

Michelle Tea: And then Oppression, the Oppression card is literally like, why did I think I wanted this? Now here I am, you know. I'm trapped.

But then, you know, so I was looking for like, oh, home sweet home vibes for Chicago. And I'm not quite getting it there either. It's like you have the Prudence card, which is very interesting. It's, it's an Eight of Disks. It's a Virgo card, sun in Virgo. And it's — to me it's saying like, look at this beautiful tree for those who, you know, don't know what this card looks like in the Thoth deck. It's this gorgeous tree that's flowering and there are these beautiful protective leaves that are growing over the blossoms. And it's you know, it's a story about like, like loving protection. So in this way, I feel like it's you are taken care of in Chicago in this way, like you've got roots there. You have family there. And in a sense, you also take care of Chicago, right, you have a love for it, you know it so intimately, and you want, as an Aquarius like you want to offer it, you want to be of service to Chicago, but it might not be right for you anymore. 

It's like you got to you got to move out of there, but not necessarily to L.A. Are there any other places you're interested in or is this something you need to think about? 

Shea Couleé: Oh, my God. That would be something I would need to think about. I'm like, is Palm Springs an option? Like LA adjacent.

Michelle Tea: Do you want to pick some Palm Springs cards, right? 

Shea Couleé: Yeah, let's see. I've never even been to Palm Springs, but let's see. 

Michelle Tea: Sight unseen. Will you move to Palm Springs? Sight unseen. Oh, my gosh. I mean. I feel like Palm Springs could really benefit from a dose of your energy, frankly. 

Shea Couleé: Look, I love mid century modern architecture, like don't even get me started. Like, my, my, my dream house is like a whole 70s glam fantasy. And I'm like, where else? 

Michelle Tea: This definitely looks a lot better for you, actually. You have the Chariot and the Chariot is a card in the tarot that, that does represent moving locations. You know, actually literally moving is like a traditional read on this guy. He's Cancer and, you know, Cancer is a sort of home-sweet-home kind of card. And he's a little bit, you know, it's the chariot of war. So it does talk about like maybe there's a little bit of a fight that needs to happen to make this happen. But it's sort of victory is assured if you just like go to battle, like victory is assured. And then your next card is another little fighter. So you've got — I don't know what the fight is around this, if there's like a little bit of a hustle involved, but she's like, I'm going to take what's mine like. Look at her. She's just jumping with her sword drawn. 

Shea Couleé: Yes.

Michelle Tea: The Princess of Swords in this deck, it's like basically she's tearing down a corrupt temple. That's the illustration. So this this temple is corrupt. It needs to go. She's not asking to speak to the manager. That's not her style. She's going to go in and she's just going to kick the building down. 

Shea Couleé: Yes.

Michelle Tea: So it seems like a bold move is being called for. And your final card is another princess, Princess of Wands. And there she is, just like beautiful, fearless. 

Shea Couleé: I love it. 

Michelle Tea: She has these big antenna on her head that are supposed to be about powerful intuition, following the intuition. She literally has a tiger by the tail, the tail’s, like, wrapped around her neck like a scarf, which is that metaphor for, you know, having it together, not being intimidated. She's burning her fears on an altar next to her. It's a real glyph of fearlessness. So, yeah, that looks really good, actually. 

Shea Couleé: Right? 

Michelle Tea: I like it for you. I really like it for you.

Shea Couleé: I like it for me too.

Shea Couleé: Oh, my God. OK, OK, OK. Can I ask you one more question? 

Michelle Tea: Yes, of course. 

Shea Couleé: OK, OK. Because this ties into the whole Chicago Palm Springs. Love it. Love it. Because I was hoping to like kind of like within like the next like year buy my first like, condo, but just like my first property so I'm not like renting anymore. And so that's something I've been working so hard on, getting my credit together like I would like. I have literally been sweating just like saving, doing everything I can to set myself up for it. 

So I would like to ask the cards about what I should focus on the most in that process. I guess I have a little bit of fear because, you know, it's a big it's a big thing, you know? But I also am trying really to push myself outside of, you know, those fears and tapping into that own inner strength and understanding that I'm good enough and I'm capable enough. I think one of the struggles that's like a Black person in America trying to achieve and get to the level of being a homeowner, it's like there are other hurdles, you know, and I have like friends in similar situations where I'm like, what? You got approved for like this what line of credit? What? What? You know, all these things. And so I guess I just want to check in on my my my confidence and just I guess the process of just buying one's first home, like what can I expect? 

Yeah. So many questions. You’re like, do we have a clear question yet?

Michelle Tea: No but it’s OK, I like helping, I like helping figure out what those questions are. OK, so first what I want to do is in general pick like what does this path look like for you towards homeownership, OK? So I'm shuffling with that. 

Shea Couleé: I just need something with a big bathtub that I can meditate in. 

Michelle Tea: Yeah, I mean the cards have already prescribed that for you. So yes. 

Shea Couleé: Thank you.

Michelle Tea: That is what you need. 

Shea Couleé: Thank you. 

Michelle Tea: Oh, yeah, this looks good. 

Shea Couleé: Yay. 

Michelle Tea: Oh, it's so good! It's so good, Shea! I'm so happy to see how good it is. All right, so here's for, like, for buying a house at all, right, the path for you for buying a house. Your centerpiece card, which is your card in the center, it's the Lovers. OK, so this is really beautiful. 

Shea Couleé: Oh. 

Michelle Tea: I mean, I feel like. OK, first of all, are you — are you buying a house with your partner?

Shea Couleé: Yeah, so that's why I immediately went, aw, because that's just like it's it's yes, that's just. Wow, uh huh. 

Michelle Tea: So you're not in it alone.

Shea Couleé: I'm not in it alone. And before we even like, actually officially dated, I remember having a dream that him and I were like on this beach and like discovered this like old house that was like basically nothing but driftwood and we both found these two separate pieces of like a like a Dutch-looking like white and blue plate and like our pieces, like matched in the dream. And in the dream, I told him I was like, you know what, we can build this and put this together, you know, and build a home together and that was like one of the moments I knew that, like that he was special for me and like the one that like in my dreams, that he was the one that wanted to build a house with. So just seeing that as my first card, just like is so... it's yeah. That's really like lovely. 

Michelle Tea: It's beautiful. It's the centerpiece. And I also feel like we have these relationships with our homes, right? Like homes are magic spaces that are so often inhabited by energy and spirit that we, you know, can or can't understand, but we bond with and I feel like, you know, while, the lover in this is is your literal lover, I also feel like it's saying a little bit that the home is your lover, a little bit like you're searching for the one. Right?

Shea Couleé: Yeah. 

Michelle Tea: That home. And and I feel like it's like it's blessed, right? It's a blessed effort. It's beautiful. The other card supporting this is the Prince of Wands. He's Leo. He's so fun.

Shea Couleé: Yes.

Michelle Tea: He's like sex play, entertainment, love, joy, children. It's like — it's like that inner child. As a performer the Leo Leo energy is something that you do run on a certain level. Right. And so this is beautiful for you. 

And it’s that — we want to see I feel like, you know, when we picked earlier the Strife card was that oppressed Leo energy was saying no. Because like you, I mean Leo is the opposite of Aquarius, but I often feel like it's a complementary energy and it's like as a performer the Leo - Leo energy is something that you do run on a certain level, right? And so this is beautiful for you. 

Michelle Tea: On the other side, Queen of Swords, who is the Aquarius queen. 

Shea Couleé: Yes. 

Michelle Tea: So and so. This is about like, OK, you got to put some thought into this. You got to look at the big picture of it. But it's like that's what you've been doing. Like you're - you're not walking into it blind. Like, you know, there's like - there's like systemic racism in housing markets, so, so intense in our country, you know, and that there's like, you know, racism in banking and all this other shit. And like, you understand what you need to be looking for and on guard about. And, you know, like that because she's up this queen is up on this cloud and she's looking down at the situation and she's got a really great vantage point that is a little detached, self protective. But she's also like she's got her sword drawn. And look, she's already chopped some dude's head off, like.

Shea Couleé: Yes.

Michelle Tea: She's not - she's not going to stand for it, you know? So it's really good. It's very sharp. It's very intelligent and so you've got her power like on your side with this. 

Shea Couleé: I love that. 

Michelle Tea: I love it, too. I, I you know, as somebody who lives in Los Angeles, I selfishly would love to see you in Palm Springs.

Shea Couleé: Yes.

Michelle Tea: A little closer to my world where I can avail myself of your, of your... 

Shea Couleé: Look, maybe that's the house that I go in there and don't speak to the manager and just take for myself.

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Judy Darling: My name is Coleman Drew. Sometimes I get called Judy Darling. Basically you can call me whatever you wish, as long as you’re being nice to me and you pay me.  I accept all pronouns and I’m just here to have a good time and make some magic.

So today we are expanding the month of pride because it should go beyond a month and we’re going to do a little “take back your pride” magic with some time-traveling color magic. 

The only thing you’ll need for this spell is an environment that allows you to do your work. A space that allows you to focus and manifest your intentions in a relaxed and an open way. Tools you’ll need is a small object of your choice. You could use a candle. I like birthday candles for a witch on-the-go. Crystals, a prism is super fun if you want to do some sunlight rainbow magic. Whatever you choose as your object, once you’re ready, sit down and charge it with your intention. 

And the intention today is to make this object be filled with our pride. And I'm not talking about pride that’s motivated by our ego or fear in any way. This is that delicious pride that makes us feel more connected to the creative flow, feels more expansive, that delicious kind of pride. This is an it-gets-better kind of moment.

Once you’ve found that feeling, take some time and acknowledge it. Feel the love and the clarity that comes with knowing yourself. 

And when your object is overflowing with pride, I want you to travel back in time to another moment in your life. When a situation caused you to doubt yourself and maybe feel even a little ashamed. 

Now using your pride-filled object and the power of perspective from the future, wrap yourself in the knowledge that this moment of pain shall pass. Tell yourself that the things will work out beyond your wildest dreams. Feel reassured as you act as your own rainbow guardian angel. 

And the more that you time travel and take these meditative journeys, you'll create a time loop and you’ll start to get messages from your future self. So dive in and rewrite the past. And make tomorrow a little brighter.

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Michelle Tea: Thank you, Judy Darling. I think we all spend a lot of time projecting our most powerful witch selves out into this chaotic world, but really we’re not superheroes. We’re really people, we’re vulnerable and we get shaken and thrown. I love the thought of being able to return to the scene of an insult and heal it with magic. I mean, what is time anyway, right? Well, providing it remains linear, we’ll see you next week. Until then, stay brave and stay magic.

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This episode was produced and edited by Molly Elizalde, Tony Gannon, and Vera Blossom. We got production support from Veronica Agard, Kristine Mar, and Raven Yamamoto. Our executive producers are Ben Cooley, myself, and Molly Elizalde. Our original theme music is by John Kimbrough.

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